Monday, November 23, 2009

Long over due update

As you can see, I have opened up my blog again. I had a hard time there for a while deciding what to do with it. When I first started this, it was an infertility blog. That is all I knew. Then it was a pregnancy after infertility blog. Then a parenting after pregnancy after infertility blog. And it had started to morph into a thinking about being pregnant again after parenting after pregnancy after infertility blog. So you can see where I was having a little confusion : )

I have polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS). It is a disease of the ovaries that, among other things, keeps you from ovulating - thus making pregnancy impossible without intervention. And intervene we did. Paige Madeline was conceived via In-Vitro Fertilization, after many failed cycles of clomid and injectables. Some people say that pregnancy can re-set your body in a way. After I stopped nursing Paige, something happened to me. I started cycling on my own, which I had never done before. I had some 33, 34 ish day cycles. It was incredible! So we decided to try on our own. It hasn't worked, and although it has only been 3 cycles, I find myself getting upset about it. I realize that Paige is only 7 months old and I am crazy for even thinking about another right now - but this is just how my mind has been trained. It has become obvious to David and I that this isn't going to happen for us. My cycles have stopped again (or so it appears). I called my OB and asked for a prescription for birth control. Why? Because I am sick of thinking about it. I just want to enjoy my daughter and not obsess. Uggggh. I filled the prescription and it is sitting un-opened in my bathroom. It could sit there until May when we go back to our RE to try IVF again. Or I could open it tomorrow.

Enough about me!! Paige is doing so well. Eating well, although we aren't doing solids. She hates purees so much, I think we are going to skip them all together. My pediatrician was fine with this, as her third child didn't eat purees. When Paige gets teeth, we will do some table foods. She is sitting on her own, and getting so so close to crawling. She can move all the way across the room, but it is more dragging her body by her arms than crawling. We guessed by Thanksgiving she would be full-out crawling, so she only has a few more days! Ha! She sleeps all night in her crib, with a few exceptions. When she cries more than 10 minutes or so, I bring her to bed with us. That has only happened a few times in the last month. We made the big transition to her crib at 6 months. It was time.

If you know me in real life, you will be getting our Christmas card soon! I used tinyprints.com, and they turned out lovely. David and Paige make me look good.

Missed all my blogging friends!! But I'll be back now for good : )

2 comments:

Callie said...

So glad your back! Since we dont see each other that often its nice to keep in touch on here.
I hope everything works out for you guys... you never know what may happen or what plan God has in store for you. :) I will be praying for you though!
I saw your pics on FB the other day, and they were adorable... makes me think I need to get on the ball with our Christmas pics and cards! :)

Stacy said...

Glad to see you are back - I have been MIA as well. When I do have a chance to jump on the computer I always take a peek at your blog. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you and your beautiful family!