Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Second u/s tomorrow

I am excited, terrified, nervous, anxious...
I pray that we see a heartbeat. I am in such limbo right now - I am not excited to be pregnant, because I don't feel like I am. I am not enjoying not being pregnancy (ie, drinking, sexing, running) because I might be pregnant. I might really be in my 6th week. I might actually have a baby May 5th, 2009. Or, I might get drunk on the plane to Seattle.

David and I are going with my parents to Seattle to watch OU play Washington. I am very excited. I love college football. I always have. It is truly amazing to see 85,000 people get excited for one thing. Scream, cheer, high-five and hug total strangers...where else? I am very passionate about my team, and love others who are too. Even if it isn't for my team. To be a fan of something is a wonderful thing. To feel the ups and downs, celebrate victories with your family and friends...or sit in the car in silence when you lose : ) I just love it. I am constantly reminded of how wonderful my life is and no matter what we see tomorrow, the world will keep turning.

That doesn't keep me from being excited, terrified, nervous, anxious...

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Yay! I came across your blog from the nest and I have been following your story for several weeks...I'm the same age as you and starting the IVF cycle now (bcps and lupron going this week). I just wanted to say congratulations on your fantastic news. I'm hoping to follow in your foot steps! Best wishes to your family!

Tab said...

Well...how did it go??? The anticipation is killing me!!!

Jill said...

I wanted to check-in and see how your 2nd u/s went. I hope everything is okay. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.