Today was back to business as usual at our house. It is, in a way, a relief to be alone with the kids and know that we can just do our thing.
But I do get lonely. I was supposed to go to a fun girls night tonight, but David had to study, so it didn't work out. I love making small talk with the checkers at target. I get ridiculously excited when my mom pops over for a visit. It is hard, because I DO have friends. I have people call me to meet up, go to lunch, the zoo, etc. It i just too much with the twins right now. They are at the age where they have to be on schedule. They aren't happy sitting in their stroller. They want to be held, played with, play on the floor...
I know this time is short. I really do understand that. I know I'm going to be okay. I know they will be in school before I know it and I am going to be terribly sad. I will look back on these days and scream at my past self, "why didn't you enjoy this more! Why did you want to get out of the house so much? Why didn't you just sit there and love on your babies?!"
Please, God, give me the strength to remember that.
Today, though, besides being a little lonely, was a good day.
We went for a walk in the morning before it got too hot. I put the boys in the jogger and Paige walked with me. We went to the park and to see the ducks in the pond.
First time in the big girl swing! She was apprehensive at first, but started to like it.
They like the fresh morning air. Pretty soon it will be too hot for us to do this, so I'm enjoying it now.